i feel terrible right now. i havent fufilled my duty as a friend. entirely too engrossed with myself. what a bitch. i havent been there when my friends needed me.. all i did was play, play and play. not bothering how the person was feeling. how low the person was. i was just too caught up in my life. when i am online i am not paying attention. when its actually one of my only means of communication. technology has made the world a smaller place but nothing beats the closes of a face to face conversation. unfortunately, its not possble.

im sorry adel. for not being there for you when you tired to open up to me. now i regret everything. really hope that you stop what you are doing. i think there are better options than fags. please be strong.fagging only gives you temporary happiness. i know it sounds cliche but its true. somehow i wish like killing mark for buying them for you and that you werent so far away.

freedom came with trust.